When doubt kicks in

When you’ve set a goal in your life and you manage to achieve this goal unexpectedly, it can change your life drastically. Your daily schedule looks different and you focus on this new achieved goal. You go for it completely, which means other subjects in your life can only get less focus from you. You’re feeling good about your new life, and then… doubt kicks in if you’re doing it right. Is it okay to pay less attention and focus to other subjects in your life? Is it a bad thing? Are you failing now because you need to be superwoman and juggle all balls up in the air at the same time with the same amount of attention? Are you looking for permission that it’s okay to focus on your newly achieved goal to make the best out of that, instead of all the other subjects in your life?

It happened to me when I achieved a new goal last week. And I started wondering if it was a bad thing to focus on this new part of my life instead of focussing on the other subjects. I reflected my feelings and question to a dear friend and received the answer that it was logical and human to do this, because this new goal needed my attention now to expand it more to achieve a higher goal, and after that I could focus on the other subjects in my life again with more attention. It’s just a temporary change of focus.

I noticed that I was not giving myself permission to relax until I would have achieved my higher goal, like I was pushing forward as a fast train, not allowing myself to breathe and relax. I realised this was a belief that was not helping me. A belief I could better let go, so I asked my guides and angels to remove this belief from me and replace the energy with being and feeling relaxed right now about my new situation, even though the next goal wasn’t achieved yet and I couldn’t focus on other subjects in my life right now.

What a relief and what a difference. I slept so well after that. It’s a beautiful insight to realise that you’re behaving in a way that is blocking you from being at ease and happy right now. You can choose to be happy right now. You don’t need to wait until you have achieved another goal. It’s a choice. And it has to do with faith also that your next goal will be achieved. Together with the help of your guides and angels, you can release the belief that’s blocking you and replace it with how you want to feel. It’s so powerful. This is also why it’s so important to tell your guides and angels how you feel, what your worries and fears are, what you need in life, and how they can help you. Talk on a daily basis with them as if you’re chatting with real good friends and build up this great unique relationship with them. They are there for you and love to help you.

When you become ill, you hope it’ll be behind you soon. When you have a cold, you grab some extra vitamins, take extra rest and your body starts to beat the cold and you’re back on track in a couple of days or a week. But what if your body doesn’t beat an infection by itself, you don’t feel energetic nor vital anymore and your body starts dysfunctioning? What message is your body trying to tell you? What is it that you must learn?

Last year in February my body decided it was time to go ‘inside’ myself. One day I just found myself having no energy anymore and feeling terrible. It hit me because in December I had enjoyed a week away at the coast and recharged my energy. In January I felt pretty good too. But I knew (clair knowing) that it was totally wrong in my body and I decided to ring the alarm bells. I called several practitioners I’ve worked with previously, I asked help from my colleagues and I started my journey  to health.

I am normally optimistic and positive so I told myself: “Next week you’ll feel better and everything will be fine”. But it went in a different way for me. Here’s my story of what I’ve learned the last 1.5 years. I want to share this with you because I hope it’ll give you new insights about health that could be useful for your own journey.

First of all, I needed to get my energy back but there was so much wrong in my body with several organs that didn’t function properly anymore, that I started with homeopathy and naturopathy medications instead of energy healing. Otherwise it would be mopping the floor while leaving the tap open. What I didn’t see coming, was that this means your body starts to detox. And detoxing takes its time! It is incredible what your body has stored in your life. There are emotions and feelings but also beliefs that need to be reconsidered. There can be infections in your gut like Amoeba (from tap water and in my case even in the old water pipes at my rental place), bacteria, viruses, parasites and fungi. I had most of them. I also had a big issue with my period because every month the bleeding had increased and it had become so heavy, that it caused deficiencies in my body of iron and magnesium and I couldn’t do anything the first days of my period. My hormones were out of balance too, which had a connection to my thyroid.

If I read this back, I still wouldn’t know where to start with trying to solve my health. I just started with a naturopath’s help and went from there. My detoxing started and I felt even sicker at some days. It was one step forward and five steps back! I still tried to work in the meantime, but I can tell now that sometimes I had a client in the morning, then I lay on the couch feeling exhausted but I couldn’t fall asleep, then a client in the afternoon, I had to pick up my daughter Esmee from school, lay on the couch without being able to fall asleep again, I cooked dinner and went to bed straight after my daughter, to find myself exhausted and not being able to fall asleep, sleeping only 2-3 hours and waking up again and staying awake the rest of the night until my alarm went off. If you do this for a few days, you become a real zombie and you can’t think clear anymore. You can’t prioritise nor focus/concentrate on anything. I was just surviving from day to day. This happened to me for a few months and the message was simple: take the time your body needs to rest and heal. Simply lying on my bed without being able to sleep, but at least not doing anything else. And I was incredibly busy in my mind. Thoughts about things from the past flashing by and I mean very unimportant details like what I was wearing one day at high school. The thoughts that popped up, didn’t make any sense to me. It seemed loose memories that needed to be filed again in the right place.

How did I feel while being so ill? Frustrated, angry, miserable, sad and very scared. I also wondered why this was happening to me. Hadn’t I suffered enough after losing my husband Jan? I couldn’t get why I was paused on my path, where I felt I needed to keep moving forward because I had the huge responsibility for Esmee and I felt the pressure to earn an income with my own business. I needed to pay the rent every week. I was disappointed in myself, in being ill where I had so many plans to take actions, but my body blocked me from that. I also felt guilty towards Esmee for being ill where she had seen so much illness with Jan already and now I was constantly ill too. I did my best to let her life continue the best I could with her normal routine and after school activities and playdates. I had a dream to become old with Jan, to travel together and to grow together. All these dreams were vanished. I had lost direction, I had to design a new direction for myself. It was time to decide ‘what do I really want?’. But I also was afraid of the future, cause I had no clue where to begin.

I visited also another naturopath and two kinesiologists. We found out that I had two traumatic experiences round Jan’s death, situations where I got an emotional shock and my body was still in shock and in survival mode. The first one started in October 2014 where he suddenly became incredibly tired. Somehow unconsciously, I had ‘known’ this was a very bad sign. I saw Jan going so fast from being tired to not being able to do his job any longer. The second one was when the doctor took me to a separate room in the hospital to tell me for the second time that they couldn’t save Jan anymore and that I had to make big decisions and call family to come over as fast as possible. It’s interesting that these two situations caused the shock in me. You would suspect Jan’s death would be the big shock. I felt that his real death was easier to accept for me because I had said my goodbyes many times, I knew he would feel so much better as a soul without his restricted body and I could sense he’s very happy where he is now. And of course the connection that I still feel with him and the signs he brings on my path, are helpful to accept what has happened.

After about half a year I felt guided to firstly try to get rid of my infections cause they constantly kept destroying everything I was trying to heal and build up again. We found out that I had a fungal infection since I was 10 years old (layers and on cell memory level). It had played up a few times previously in the last 10 years with one fungal toe nail, I had used antibiotics two times for that, and it was healed and gone again. New for me was that an infection has layers and can go generations back and also can go back to past lives. It can take a very long time to get rid of a fungal infection. I’ve learned that antibiotics are no good for your health. They destroy your gut and immune system. Sometimes you need antibiotics because nothing helps anymore (I’ve seen that with Jan), but in my case of the fungal infection, with the knowledge I had gained, I decided to only treat it with natural products from now on. I felt so strong that my body needed natural products and I wanted to stay true to that!

I discovered doTERRA essential oils and started using the ones to help with overcoming infections (Oregano, Frankincense, Myhrr, Fennel, Clove, Tea Trea, On Guard). They were a great support for my health besides using naturopath products and doing sessions with the kinesiologists, remedial massage therapist, iridologist and colleague healers, hypnotherapist and channellers. Because the oils are pure natural, they have a high frequency (in mHz) and I started to feel more energy, although it all went very slowly. I started to feel clearer in my mind and I sometimes had a night where I slept 8 hours with a few wake ups in between. I started to get excited about using the oils and got interested to use them in cleaning at home and I attended some workshops to use the oils to create your own sunscreen and after sun spray. At the moment I’m starting to create my own hand soap and skin care products. Slowly all the toxic and chemical products are replaced by natural products. It’s a new world but my body tells me very clear that these natural products are good for me and my health.

A big break-through was a channelled session from a colleague where Mother Mary helped me to solve my heavy bleeding issue with my period. It was a past life connection where I helped to end unwanted pregnancies. One woman died and I still carried guilt with me from this. I had to forgive myself for what I had done. The moment I started to say the words ‘I forgive myself for …’, I felt a very strong emotion. I connected with the truth of this information and had to cry before I could continue my sentence. Mother Mary told I would notice immediate improvement after the session. My period had started that day, and I got my evidence because there didn’t follow heavy bleeding anymore.
Two months before this, I had a Mirena placed. According to the gynaecologist, this would solve the heavy bleeding issue. I didn’t feel good about this but was feeling so exhausted from the bleedings and lack of iron and magnesium, that I gave it a try. Imagine how my GP looked when I told this story about my past life and that the issue of my heavy bleeding was resolved. I demanded my Mirena to be taken out of my body immediately. My GP and I were no longer a good match because she wasn’t open for the alternative path I had chosen to follow to fix my health. I asked for help on my private Facebook page and had three people suggesting the same GP, so I swapped to this new GP and she is thinking with me and open for the practitioners I work with.

Another unexpected traumatic experience came on my path because I had asked universe to heal my heart, after reading a book by Doreen Virtue. You could meditate and ask this from your heart space. I did, but nothing happened. I repeated my request a few times in two days. Then when I went to bed, I noticed my left ear was blocked with ear wax and I used the special ear drops that contain carbamide peroxide. I had used them a few weeks before this day, and had gotten a bit of an upset and uneasy feeling. This time after putting the drops in my ear, I started to panic, I felt such strong emotions that I felt I lost control, I had even problems breathing from the stress in my body. I seriously felt I was going to die. Somehow I knew deep down that it was an experience and that I needed help from someone to disconnect from this experience. I called my colleague who channelled Mother Mary and Archangel Michael for me. I got explained that I had asked for help to heal my heart and that a past life where I was tortured and killed by putting hot candle wax in my ears, had caused that I hated humanity. This had blocked my heart and could now be healed through experiencing this connection. It was incredibly intense to feel but after 1.5 hours I was calm again, wrote down all information in my journal and went to sleep. What I learned here was to ask to heal your heart but in a gentle way that you can handle yourself. I had been too eager to get it done. I had thought lightly about it, but there can be a lot of blockages connected to past lives in your heart.

I made more healthy changes in my diet. I bought a cold press juicer and my breakfast from now on was a cold press juice from green veggies and a piece of fruit, half a lemon and half a lime. This felt really good in my body. A lemon with water is really good to get your body alkaline. This felt really good in my body. As lunch I ate the pulp from my breakfast on a pancake of one egg. I eat fresh veggies and fruit every day, I am vegetarian since a few years cause I felt guided to become a vegetarian (I only eat a piece of salmon every now and then when I feel like it, but further no meat at all), I eat mostly gluten free, I am dairy free cause I felt guided to do that (I only eat dairy when it’s part of a meal in a restaurant), I am sugar free, and I eat a lot of nuts for their proteins. I also bought a special water tank with lots of filters to cleanse the tap water you put in there, but also adds good ingredients to the water i.e. minerals. It’s amazing to see that tap water causes the filter to turn from white into orange/brown. That’s how polluted tap water is. I even wash all my veggies and fruit with this filtered water and I use it to brush my teeth and clean my toothbrush.

My energy levels were building up but slowly, and I could pick up exercising. I love dancing and singing, so I started lessons in both again. One day when I walked back from singing lesson to my car, I heard the message in my mind: “And this is something you won’t quit anymore”. It was confirmation that I (and my heart and soul) needed to do this cause it made me feel good and it was my way to let my creativity flow. And singing is good for your throat chakra too. The last few years I stopped the activities that I really liked, to be there to take care of my family cause I had to take over Jan’s role more often towards our kids and I had to do more alone where previously he could help me with these tasks. Also the finances didn’t allow me to continue doing what I loved to nurture myself.

With the start of 2017 I left illness behind me. So I thought. Unfortunately, I got more infections. When one was gone, another appeared. It seemed like it never stopped. Until I read a message that you can only heal when your soul has given permission to heal. Immediately I spoke to my soul and explained how I wanted to move forward with my life, that I needed to be healthy and have energy to do so and I asked for my soul’s permission. The day after that, I already felt a huge improvement.

Recently I got an insight while taking a shower, that I had a part in me that was grieving, but that it was possible to let it go now. I called this part ‘the grieving widow’ and asked my guides and angels to remove it from me because I was ready to free myself from it. I felt and saw a dark cloud of energy flying out of my body and felt a relief and new space and I felt lighter. I hadn’t been conscious of this part inside of me and was flabbergasted to experience this release.
I got rid of all infections and for the first time since years, was free of naturopath medication for infections. I only use several supplements to support my health and strengthen my immune system.

I recently got one new infection, but I recognised it in an early stage. What I’ve learned from all the infections I’ve had, is that I recognise when I have one in my gut (sleeping problems, problems with stools, focus problems) and that I can almost diagnose myself which infection it is and what naturopath medication I need, to get rid of it. I also use the help of my guides and angels to remove all causes of the infection including all layers and connections and cell memories. I got rid of this infection quickly for the first time since years. I only had one uncomfortable evening with an aching tummy, where previously it could knock me down for days.

Since the last 4-6 weeks I feel good. And that’s such a long time ago! I feel I’m in alignment with All-That-Is, I’m in the flow, I feel happy and joyful, I love life, I have heaps of energy and a full schedule with all nice things I’m excited about. I still dance and sing, I eat healthy, I meditate and channel, and I am in contact with my body. I feel connected to my guides and angels and All-That-Is and my connection has become stronger. During 1.5 years of illness I’ve learned to listen to my body and to connect with my intuition again. If I need more rest, I take it where possible. If I feel guided to make a walk in nature, I’ll do that. I plan catch ups with like-minded people and I picked up being creative (sewing, knitting, painting by numbers, writing, etc.).

Because I’ve learned so much about many facets of health and living a healthy life, I feel guided to share knowledge with you. I’ve received a message to organise info sessions with every time a different local guest speaker to talk about another facet for your health. They will share their knowledge and experiences about health, their services or products, and you can ask them questions. I will be one of the speakers too and share my knowledge and experiences to how you can work on your health and personal growth.
With increasing your knowledge, you’ll receive more options in your life to choose from. I’d love to see you live a happy and healthy life so you can thrive! As soon as I know all guest speakers, I’ll announce the days and times for the info sessions. It’s my plan to organise the info sessions in the winter time, because this time of the year is a great opportunity to go inside yourself and find your own truth.

With the theme for the month May to Open your Heart, it’s time to look at negative self-judgments you might have which are keeping you from enjoying being you. What thoughts do you have about yourself during the day? I give you an example of one I had yesterday. I was thinking about where I was in my life and I wanted to be so much further. A traumatic experience in my life in 2015 had caused an unexpected new situation which I had to adapt to on a physical, emotional and spiritual level. I noticed yesterday I was beating myself up about being where I am now. And immediately I heard a song in my mind as a message: “Don’t be so hard on yourself, no… Learn to forgive, learn to let go…, Everyone trips, everyone falls…, So, don’t be so hard on yourself no…” You know the song by Jess Glynne? It made me stand still by what I was doing and I thanked universe for this message. I had negative self-judgment thoughts. And I needed to stop and transform those thoughts into positive loving thoughts about myself immediately.

Back to what you’re thinking about yourself. Do you like yourself? Do you like where you are in life? How you live your day-to-day life? How you look? Do you like your friends? Do you like your work? Do you like the relationship you’re in? Do you like your financial situation? Everything in your life is created by your thoughts, because you’ll attract what you think. And of course we have to learn too, so losses and hurt can occur on your path to learn from. It’s how you deal with them.

So, do you have negative self-judgments? It’s okay to have them, good that you became aware of this. It’s totally normal to have them because we are humans and our ego is sometimes very in the way to our happiness. A low self-esteem isn’t helpful either. The good news is you can work on them to create a more confident you. What’s necessary is to be your true you, to love yourself and be gentle with yourself, be nice to yourself. To feel in your heart what you want, to base your decisions on what your heart ‘tells’ you. It’ll increase your happiness.

Think about this: if you are unconditionally loved by the Creator/God although you have made mistakes in the past and said, thought or done things that you don’t like about yourself, why wouldn’t you love yourself unconditionally? You can learn from mistakes in the past, forgive yourself and fill yourself up with love from The Source. It’ll bring you closer in connection to your heart, it’ll deepen the connection to yourself. And that’s what your guides and angels want to see happening for you. They love you unconditionally, and they ask you to love yourself in the same way!

Become aware of your thoughts and decide to transform them into positive ones. Every time you notice a negative self-judgment thought, say: “Out of my mind and memory!” You can visualise it as an energy flying out of your head to the universe, where it’ll be automatically transformed in love and light for you. Then create a new thought that is the opposite, so a very positive one. An example: Instead of the thought “I’m only where I am in my life now and I should have been ten steps further”, you can think: “I am where I am today, it’s okay, I’ve worked hard to get here and I am proud of myself for the work done, There is a plan for me and I have faith in myself and the help from universe to realise all my dreams while enjoying life and it’s miracles.”

Just feel the difference in energy between these two thoughts…

Here’s a card reading for the month May 2017 for you. The theme of May is Open your Heart with the affirmation: I allow myself to feel the full range of emotions, especially all the forms of love.
Through experiences in life where you get hurt, you can decide (unconsciously) to close your heart but also to consciously put a wall around your heart as protection. It’s time to understand you’re safe and to pull down your wall of protection and open your heart to experience love. Everybody needs love, giving love to yourself, receiving love from others (family, friends, etc.) and your guides and angels and your loved ones in heaven.

Here are more cards to support this theme for May per week.
Week 1: My career is one of creating a joyful life experience.
If your dominant intent is to feel joy while you are doing the work, your triad of intentions – freedom, growth, and joy – will come quickly and easily into alignment. See your ‘career’ as one of creating a joyful life experience. You are not a creator of things, or a regurgitator of what someone else has created, or a gatherer of stuff. You are a creator, and the subject of your creation is your joyful life experience. That is your mission. That is your quest. That is why you are here.

Week 2: Monkey, Ingenuity. The situation calls for adaptability and innovation.
You’ve got to be able to first adjust to the circumstances at hand, then generate creative solutions or ideas and act on them. This situation will require you to get your hands on it, take a good look at it, use your intelligence coupled with your gut sense to evaluate it, then choose a course of action. Don’t get rigid about your choice, however, as once you make your move, new factors will come into play and you may have to adjust your course again, sometimes very rapidly. Count on it. It’s kind of like swinging from tree to tree – you have to be very quick in anticipating which branch to grab hold of. Don’t get discouraged if one direction doesn’t pan out. Just be willing to shift, and it will work out. From time to time, use that keen mind of yours to stop and assess what’s happening, then continue on, perhaps with a slight change in course based on new information. Once you stop and look back, you’ll see that every move was timely and purposeful. You have an amazing ability to move through life in a fluid and poetic fashion, whether or not you’re aware of it – just don’t get stuck in old habits and routines. Trust in that and you can do no wrong.

Week 3: Laughter. You need a good laugh!
This card asks you to see the humour within each situation, and not take life so seriously. You can ease your own stress and that of others with humour and laughter. Learn to feel joy, no matter what’s happening around you. Laughter and joy are magical because they bring happy situations into your life.

Week 4: Body Care.
The angels urge you to care for your physical body. You are asked to eat healthful foods, to exercise regularly, and to avoid toxins. Perhaps you’ve resisted guidance to pay attention to your physical body, and the angels have repeatedly come to you about this topic. They remind you that the body is an instrument that, when well tuned, emanates greater harmony. If you follow your angels’ guidance, you will feel terrific. Your increased energy and happiness is your reward for following the angels’ suggestions. They will help you find the time and motivation to exercise. They will also help you lose your cravings for unhealthful substances. And, the angels will help you enjoy the newfound pleasures that come from purifying and maintaining your physical body.

Week 5: Mother Healing: As your feelings toward your mother heal, your desires manifest more rapidly and accurately.
Universe asks you to release some remaining ‘mother issues’. Hand it all in a visualisation in the hands of Infinite Spirit. The situation may heal in unexpected ways. Be unconcerned with how it heals, and be vigilant in releasing any lower energies connected to your mother that could interfere with your life’s mission. By releasing any mother issues to universe, your heart will open further to accepting joy and blessings into your life. Your mother benefits when you’re happy, whether or not she’s consciously aware of it. Be willing to forgive and release old issues relating to yourself, your mother, mother figures, or anyone connected to your mother. By cleaning your inner house, you invite new love, opportunities, abundance, and healing energy to enter your life.
How suitable in the month of Mother’s Day!

Since the start of this new year and all its energy changes, you probably noticed lots of changes in your own life too. It can be quite challenging to keep track of your goal with all these changes happening. Or your goal suddenly isn’t your goal anymore. If you have the feeling that you lost direction in your life, here are some tips for you.

First of all, it’s a good thing to experience changes in your life. Not everybody sees it like this, but changes bring opportunities to grow and to become a person living closer to your heart and truer to yourself. We all came to this planet earth to learn and grow, so this is already the biggest goal for all of us.
Changes and growth can be quite overwhelming though and maybe you feel it’s too much to handle and you’ve lost direction in your life, you don’t know anymore what to focus on, you’ve lost clarity.

Meditate on it and allow all your feelings and emotions to be there completely. Cry if you feel like it, be angry, sad or afraid. Don’t hold it inside, but express it in the safe environment of meditating. Be grateful to be able to feel these emotions and feelings, simply because you can feel them as a soul in a human body on earth. It’s part of your learning process and growth. Give all your feelings and emotions your attention and love, until you feel them fading away and they are gone. Then fill up your body and aura with a bright white light. Also ask for help from your guides and angels. Tell them how you’re feeling, what upsets you, what you need and that you want their guidance to show you the way. Be silent and listen to what messages you receive through your heart.

You’re never alone. You have your guides and angels always with you. Through your heart you connect with them. And through your heart you also connect to the Creator/God/Source. Even if you don’t know what you’re doing or where to go to, Creator knows it through you, so lean on him. Trust that there is a plan for everyone and you’re being helped and surrounded with love. Open yourself for signs and guidance to have direction in your life again. Stop comparing yourself with others and wondering what’s wrong with you because you don’t have clear goals at this particular moment. Give yourself time to get clarity, time to grow and learn, time to be You. Everyone needs his/her own time. There’s no rush. Be patient with yourself. Everyone is unique and has his/her own path to live and learn. Be grateful for all your experiences and focus on what makes you happy. Try to schedule daily at least one thing to do that’ll make you happy, that’ll bring you energy and make you feel good. It can be a walk in nature, reading a book, colouring in, taking a bath with oils and salts, doing yoga or Pilates, meditating, going to a day spa, etc. Nurture yourself because you deserve it. You are wonderful, magical and beautiful and pure love.

With all the energy changes the last months, you can feel overwhelmed and unsettled, even completely out of balance. But do not fear the energy changes, because you are meant to review your life and make changes for yourself. What is it that you want to see changed in your life?

Take time for yourself to sit in silence and look at your life with a helicopter view. See yourself living your life. Notice how you feel. What is needed to change to make you feel happier? Imagine you have all the magic you need and you can change this in your life right now. Use the magic and change it. How do you feel after the change has taken place? How’s your happiness right now? Send this new level of happiness to all your cells in your body.

Now be honest with yourself. To realise the change on earth, you have to take action. What can you do right now as a first step to achieve your change? And can you already see what the next step will be? How can you take the next step? What do you need to do?

A change in your life is never dependent on what someone else does or doesn’t. The action is for you. If you wait for another to take a decision or an action, you’re taking on a passive role and you can only disappoint yourself or blame the other. You put the responsibility for your life (and desired change) in hands of the other person. So take back the responsibility over your life and take the first action step to what you want with your life, what will make you happy. It can mean you have to end relationships with certain people or quit your current job, to create new space for a life that suits you better. Don’t be afraid about ending relationships or quitting a job, because it will open up new space to let new like-minded people or a new job enter your life. Don’t be afraid to let go of the old when it doesn’t suit you anymore. If you hold on to it out of fear, you’ll get stuck.
And as a note I want to make clear I’m not advising you to immediately quit your job tomorrow, but more to take actions in finding out what job would make you happier and then taking the steps to get that new job, i.e. start using your network to spread the word what new job you’re looking for and start sending job applications or research how you can start your own business. It’s about taking actions because with that you’re showing universe that you’re serious about the change you want and you’re willing to take actions and take responsibility for your life.

Here are the steps again for you to change your life to achieve more happiness for yourself:

  1. Watch your life with a helicopter view and experience what you want to change to be happier
  2. Imagine how your life is in the changed situation, how you feel and how your happiness level is
  3. Take back responsibility about your own life
  4. Be honest and decide what actions you need to take to achieve the changes and write them down
  5. Decide to start the first action step for change right now
  6. Daily take time for yourself to sit in silence and visualise you’ve achieved your desired change and fill all your cells with the new level of happiness you experience

Of course I advise you to tell your guides and angels what you want to change in your life. Ask them for help, support and guidance. Ask them in daily meditation to show you what your next step is and how to take it and to assist you constantly. And ask for confirmation and signs if you’re doing the right thing to achieve the changes you want.

Self-love is healing

Self-love heart in handsThis is Archangel Gabriel, passing on my message through Astrid. I’d like to use this opportunity to inform you about big changes going on in the world. There is awakening happening for lots of people. They start to become conscious about role patterns, habits that are limiting and relationships that are disempowering. If you are experiencing to feel discomfortable with your life at the moment and you want to change things, you are one of them. ‘But how can you make such a change?’, is what you are wondering.

It all starts with becoming conscious about what’s happening in your life. Seeing the circles you’re going round in. Observe what feelings and emotions are connected to this. And then notice what thoughts you have with this. To what place in your body are you being pulled with your attention? Describe to yourself how it feels there, as if you’re explaining your feeling to a friend. And what emotion is connected to this feeling? Is it in general sadness, fear or anger? Or can you be more specific as in: pain, disappointment, anxiety, being shut down, being kept in place? Now notice what thoughts you have with this feeling and emotion. Just observe and don’t judge for what you’re experiencing. Acknowledge everything that you experience for a while until you become calm.

It’s time to make the connection to your heart now. You may ask the help of me, or your guides and angels. We can assist you to connect to your heart. Ask your heart what’s the best for you to do now. Is it something you can give yourself in the form of a colour, a symbol, a word, or a positive affirmation? This is a deed of self-love, so open yourself to receive this. Don’t think it’s strange to give this to yourself. It’s necessary and it will make you feel better, lighter, more in the flow, and sleep better. You will even start to radiate more happiness.

If you do this exercise on a daily base, you’ll see that you will increase in happiness. You will start to learn to connect to your heart and your desires so you can fulfil your needs. Don’t compare your needs with others, because you are unique and everybody has his/her own needs. Whatever your need is, nothing is strange or weird or silly. It is how it is and it is good for you. Be true to your heart’s desires and be honest to yourself. If you need a break of something, try to create that break and take time for yourself. Go out in nature and fill yourself up again with love. Love is always the answer to what you need. And you can give it to yourself. You don’t need anyone else for that.

May you live in peace and harmony and full of love to spread that to the world. If you read this and have the time to receive a healing from me, just confirm that with your thoughts right now and open yourself to receive my healing. It will only take a few minutes and I will cleanse your energy so you’ll feel more balanced and tranquil.

In love and light, Gabriel

spiritualityIn the Illawarra region in New South Wales Australia spirituality exists but it’s still a pretty new concept for many people. Most people here are focussed on money and materialism. It’s primarily about earning an income through work and making career to earn more money, owning properties and possessions. Lots of people are scared to lose their job because then their ‘secure’ world will fall apart; if you don’t have a job anymore, you can’t pay your mortgage(s), you can lose your house and more of your possessions. And then what?

This is the question where you can choose to let spirituality enter into your life. Think about it for a second: What happens when you would lose your house? When you don’t have money anymore? Most of you will think of the humiliation, shame, failure to your environment (family, friends, and neighbours). But what if you, instead of focussing on materialism, turn to yourself as a person; who are you without a house, without money, without possessions? You are still YOU! You are still a part of The Source/God here on earth in a human body, you can still shine your light, be a role model how you deal with the situation, be of service for others and be meaningful. You are still love. You can still give love. Have you ever thought about it that way? Does this whole way of thinking maybe cause a shift inside of you?

Let’s go back from this idea to your work. You earn your money through work, but do you like your job? Do you do the work that you love? Do you feel excited to get up to go to your work? Do you feel it’s your calling to do this work? Do you feel compassion when you’re working? Or are you just doing this work because it pays the bills?
When you’re doing the work you love, it’ll bring you energy, new opportunities, personal growth, fulfilment and happiness. When you’re doing the work to pay the bills, look at your wellbeing. Are you healthy, vital, positive and optimistic? Or are you low in energy, unhappy, complaining, or jealous/envious of what other people have or seem to have in your eyes?

Back to spirituality. If you can see yourself as a unique being with talents, what are you doing here on earth? What can you contribute to make this world a better place? How can you serve? The answer is nowhere to be found than inside yourself. When you quiet your mind and go with your attention to your heart space, ask your heart what it wants to do, learn, or change. Wait for the answer that can come in the form of a thought, a feeling or an image in your mind. Through your heart you have a connection with The Source/Universe. It’s a connection of pure, unconditional love and it can bring you answers. It’s a whole new world opening up to you with lots of help and support in the form of your spirit guides and angels. You’re not alone. You’re surrounded with love and support if you open yourself up for this connection. And even when you’re sad or lonely, you keep the connection although you think it’s gone, and you can release your feelings and experience the connection again. Especially in times of grief, this is a wonderful tool to cope with what’s happening in your life. Grief as in losing a dearly loved one, but also in the case of losing your job or being diagnosed with an illness. Spirituality is about learning through living your life, experiencing, letting go and moving forward again. Of constantly being in contact with your heart and feeling if you’re still happy with your life or if you want to make changes. It’s learning and integrating what you’ve learned. And if I tell you that there are no limits to achieve, but that it’s all infinite, maybe you can think or meditate on that one to discover your own truth. Because that’s also spirituality: finding your own answers through connecting, reading, listening, asking and receiving, through quieting your mind and listening to your heart. You don’t need to have the same opinion as others. You are allowed to have your own truth. And you deserve to discover your own truth and to live it fully. Then you can truly say you’re living from your heart! And how spiritual is that?! Here you’ve got the importance of spirituality for you.

white-1184178_1280Since I found out about angel numbers, I asked universe to show me them as much as possible. I started noticing them everywhere; times on the clock, number plates of cars, house numbers, phone numbers, etc. Every number has a specific meaning and you can see them as messages from angels to you to help you on your path.

Recently I read a book called The Messengers. It was about a very spiritual business man and from one particular moment in his life, other people started to receive messages for him at the time 4:44 (often they woke up at 4:44 am to receive the message for him). Since I was reading the book, I started to see the time 4:44 every day and I even woke up at that time! In the meantime I have finished reading the book but still get to see 444 everywhere.

If you are open to receive angel numbers in your life too, tell your spirit guides and angels (or God/The Source/universe in general) with your thoughts that you are ready to receive angel numbers from now on. Ask also to notice the angel numbers everywhere. It’s so much fun to receive them if you know what they mean. Angel numbers can appear in 2 digits, 3 digits, 4 digits, or even more. Just know that the more of the same numbers are together, the more powerful the message is for you. A great way to pay conscious attention to the angel numbers you receive, is to write them daily in a journal.

When I feel down or stuck, I feel always uplifted when I receive angel numbers, because they proof to me I am helped and all is good.

Here are two short lists for you with explanations of what the angel numbers and times mean. I advise you to print them and keep them in a place close to you, so you can look up their meaning when you receive an angel number or time.


Meaning of angel numbers (by Doreen Virtue):

111: your thoughts are manifesting fast, make sure you only think about what you desire in life instead of your fears, as you’ll attract what you’re thinking about

222: keep faith and hope, keep holding positive thoughts, keep affirming and continue visualising cause they are starting to manifest

333: the ascended masters confirm they are with you, sending you love and helping you

444: the angels confirm they are with you, sending you love and helping you

555: a positive change in your life is coming your way

666: your thoughts are too much focussed on the material world. Focus on spirit and service and know that your material and emotional needs will automatically be met as a result

777: you’re on the right path, keep going, know that your wishes will come true and expect more miracles to occur

888: be prepared cause a phase of your life is about to end. It also means abundance is coming your way.

999: this is the end (completion) of a big phase in your life. Get to work on your life’s purpose without delay.

000: you are loved by your Creator. It also means a situation has gone full circle.


Meaning of angel times (by Karina Collins):

10:10 you’re stressed about money and your angels are sending you support so that you can improve the situation

11:11 you have spiritual gifts, a wake-up call to rise up and serve a greater cause, believe in yourself

12:12 stay positive cause the future is bright, you’re in an emotional growth phase which will lead to brighter days

13:13 you have a new spirit guide because your life purpose is evolving and this guide is giving you new support on this unfamiliar part of your path

14:14 talk more (preferably daily) to your angels about what you’re worried about, what you’re grateful about, etc. to build a real relationship

15:15 a big change is coming to set you back on track with destiny

16:16 sweet love in the form of a baby (or grandchild) or romantic love is on the way

17:17 you’re thinking about taking an action, the answer is yes, you are on the right path

18:18 meditation, yoga or some other form of relaxation will help you connect to universe. If you’re already doing this, this time is a sign to congratulate you cause you’re doing well, keep going

19:19 take the step you fear and have been asking for guidance on, it is your destiny

20:20 think before you speak, your words have a powerful impact on those around you

21:21 acknowledge the reasons for happiness in your life right now

22:22 you are guided to build and create, you have the potential for greatness, as a creator, teacher or organiser. It is time to do and not talk. Have faith that your dreams and plans have a real future and will come to fruition if you go forward now

23:23 a deceased loved one is sending you love right now. The first person you think of, is who it is. Acknowledge their presence and open your heart to receive their love.

Candle of love

Candle of love

Friday 11th November it’s my wedding anniversary (I got married 11-11-2011). Last year it was the first anniversary after Jan, my husband, crossed over to heaven. I asked him how I could best remember and celebrate our love and he advised a ‘light a candle’ action. This candle symbolises our pure, unconditional love. I gave our love the intention to spread through this candle all over the world to everyone who needed this love because they missed a dear loved one too.

For Jan and me it would be a huge present if you too will light a candle Friday 11th November and give it the same intention. Last year it was a success and we felt honoured that so many people joined our action. I announced to make this a yearly recurring event. Feel free to share this message and to join us and let’s try to create a chain of lighted candles in the world to spread love. If you’ll join, I would appreciate it if you’ll send me a message below (like ‘I’m joining’), just to see how far this idea of Jan can reach.

Thank you so much for participating!

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