This is a very personal story and it feels that it is important to share. You might resonate with the fear described below, especially with the last years of losing so many loved ones. My experience might point you in a direction you hadn’t thought of before and with that you can work further on your own personal growth process.
While using EFT Tapping to work on myself yesterday, I was determined to find out what was causing my trust issue with my spiritual connection. I asked my guides to help me get to the bottom of it. After a few rounds of tapping, the deepest fear came to the surface. I kept tapping and found out it had to do with a fear of God/Creator/Source/All-That-Is (I use all these words with the intention that it is the highest level of pure unconditional love). I wanted to find out what the fear exactly was about. I’m a medium, have a spiritual connection and don’t feel afraid of God, so what was this fear exactly?
A thought flashed through my head it was a fear that God would take another one I love deeply.
I went back in time to find out where this had started.
It turned out to be the professor at the ICU in July 2015 telling me that my husband couldn’t be saved any longer.
There was nothing doctors could do for him anymore.
I remember this situation because I replied, “We still believe in a miracle.” I didn’t let the message enter and kept it outside myself this way.
The next day the doctor treating my husband at the ICU invited me to sit down with her in a separate room, closed the door, and told me how serious it was. She was the most amazing person – for me she was like an angel and I’m super grateful for her treating me with so much empathy -. She stayed with me in that room till I let the message enter completely and accepted the truth. I cried and she held me till I was ready to go and tell my husband this sad news and to make big decisions about his last time on this planet.
Back to my tapping.
Understanding now where this fear of God taking another loved one, that was blocking my spiritual connection came from, my body got into a reaction. My hands started to shake, all muscles in my bum and legs contracted so strong that it hurt, and my body came in waves with deep emotions. The first contraction of my muscles lasted quite long. After that there came many more contractions but they became shorter each time until my body went in a relaxation state, my eyes popped open and I felt lighter and relieved that was behind me. Thank goodness, I’ve experienced this type of big releases more often in the past, so I’m okay to go fully with it and to let this happen.
Out of the blue I heard a very clear message in my head: “We applaud you, congratulations, you have just released a big blockage, well done. How are you feeling?”
I smiled and answered in my mind to my guides. My spiritual connection had definitely become clearer! Goal achieved.
